I have recently started listening to Christian radio again. Talk radio, that is. I have always kept tuned in to 94.9 KLTY, except for days when I was feeling especially sorry for myself and wanted to wallow in some country music :)
After we lost Ian, talk radio just irritated me. Much of it just sounded too goody goody, to out there, too philisophical, too politically motivated, too irrelevant. I know now that it was really my raw nerves and the feeling as though MY world had ended and finding it hard to imagine that the physical world continued on.
So, after 3 and a half years of grieving, healing, contemplation, meditation, heated words with God, depression, growth, tentative prayers, questions about what is true, re-thinking everything... well, you get the idea! Once your life is shaken to the very core, it is difficult to cling to the most basic things, let alone contemplate the wonders of an infinate God. Last year my mom asked me if I thought we were in the end times. My response? "I don't have the emotional real estate to even think about that!"
Now that I am not fully consumed by grief, I do have a bit more to invest, so I have started to nurture my soul and spirit with Biblical teaching once again. Yesterday I heard a broadcast on 90.9 KCBI from Revive Our Hearts. It was the first in an interesting series on Modesty. This is a subject that I have always (well, as an adult!) been passionate about. Especially now that I have a daughter (who wants to be a model - God help us please!)
I went to the website to check out the series and found out about the True Woman Movement
After reading the material and signing the manifesto, I signed up for the 30 Day Makeover Challenge.
Day one opens with these questions:
- Where do you get your ideas about what it means to be a woman?
- Who has the most influence on your behavior and attitudes?
Wow - That could take weeks to answer! There is so much that comes to mind, not the least of which is the quote:
button available here (although by the end of this study, I'm not sure that I'll want one!)
Obviously our mother's have the biggest impact on us, good or bad. In my case the influence is predominately good: godly, biblical, conservative, committed, fun, beautiful, thrifty.
My mom also was the first one to point me to the Bible as the authority on all things, not jsut about how to be a woman.
My good friend, Laura Belt, was the woman who really mentored me as a young wife and mother, providing though-provoking non-judgemental conversations and always being transparent in her quest for godliness.
So - those are my thoughts on day 1. I'm not promising to post each day, but I'm going to try! I'd love to hear your thoughts and see if you'd like to sign up for hte makeover as well!